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September 2026

34 notes
reflections updated 1 min read

Half my life

Today, my wife Hannah and I celebrate our 23rd wedding anniversary – meaning we've been married for more than half our lives ❤️

Although she hasn't retained the accent, Hannah is originally from Liverpool, so it feels appropriate to quote the ending theme song from Surprise Surprise featuring famous Scouser, the one and only Cilla Black:

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3 events I'm going to be at in the next couple of weeks

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Doug will be attending three events in the next couple of weeks, including TechFreedom: Is the biggest risk to your organisation even on your risk register? and AI, Communities & Coops. These events will take place on 9th, 15th, and 17th September, with locations including online and London. Doug is also planning to run a TechFreedom cohort with Tom in October and November.

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An inner architecture

This is why Aristotle thought that you can't judge whether a man was "happy" until after he's dead. And sometimes until long after he's died, because it would depend on the actions of, say, his offspring (which would reflect the way he helped raise them).

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ideas updated 2 min read

Legibility at the boundary

This morning, the slowly-moving car crash that is my method of thinking things through served up an idea related to a previous note about consequences and boundaries.

Essentially, when we're talking about boundaries we're talking about legibility which is an important component of literacy. Literate practices involve encoding and decoding texts, and sit within an existing power dynamic. There are many forms of literate practices, which as I will keep repeating until I'm blue in the face, are dependent upon literate communities.

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Living an NPC life

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Doug discusses the concept of living an NPC life, where one gives up their autonomy to become a side character in someone else's story. This idea is explored in an article by signalundefied, which Doug references. The article challenges the notion that being an NPC is necessarily a negative experience, offering an alternative perspective.

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Consequences have boundaries

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Doug has discovered a connection between his previous thoughts on consequentialism and Critical System Heuristics (CSH), a framework that involves asking 12 boundary judgement questions to inform a system of interest. These questions can be applied twice, firstly to assess the current system and secondly to envision an ideal system, allowing for comparison and iteration towards a more ethical and representative system. Doug's previous work on CSH includes a set of tables that have become distorted during archiving, but the core principles remain applicable.

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ideas updated 7 min read

Everyone's a consequentialist until they get punched in the face

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Doug suggests that people tend to be consequentialists when considering others, but intentionalists when it affects themselves, highlighting a disparity in moral judgement. He proposes a 2x2 grid to help consider AI ethics more holistically, examining duty and responsibility, legitimacy and governance, direct harm and benefit, and systemic consequences. By using this grid, Doug argues that individuals can make more informed decisions about AI by considering multiple moral questions and perspectives.

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August 2026

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A tentative title and focus for my next zine

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Doug is planning his next zine, CW-PUB-002: Interfaces of Refusal, which will explore the design language of refusal in technology, including errors such as 404 and Access Denied. He aims to highlight how machines can hinder our goals and how we often passively accept these refusals. The zine will be the second in a three-part series, following on from CW-PUB-001: Field Notes on Productive Friction.

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The will for free time requires its organization against constant valorization, which is to say, alienation

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Doug discusses the concept of free time, as envisioned by Marx, where individuals can pursue their interests and contribute to societal progress without being bound by capitalist labour. According to Doug, the will for free time requires its organisation against constant valorisation, or alienation, and this can be achieved through various means, including the reappropriation of technology. Doug highlights the importance of creating alternatives based on different ontologies and epistemologies, rather than simply repurposing existing technologies, in order to bring about a post-labour condition.

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Proof of (No) Work

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Doug has been exploring the concept of intentional unproductivity, challenging the notion that one's value is tied to their productivity. He has been making a conscious effort to work less and focus on activities that bring him joy and fulfillment, such as reading and creating. By doing so, Doug aims to carve out time and space for self-reflection and personal growth, questioning the idea of who we are without our productive pursuits.

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Death is a silence held at full volume for a very long time

It is not too far-fetched to link the silence at the end of a musical performance with death. In Moscow, on the gravestone of the Russian composer Alfred Schnittke is carved a stave with the semi-circle and dot of a fermata, the sign that indicates that a note (or in this case a pause) is to be held. Underneath is written ‘fff’ (one step above fortissimo, meaning very, very loud).

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We geniuses have designed a society in which expressing true feelings in public is discouraged

Aren’t you excited about the party? What with all the small talk and the rumours and the canapés on a little plate? People are decked out in fine clothes, handbags and shoes, cracking dad jokes while catching food in their mouths with haste and vigour. The kids have been excused. Weren’t they just babies? Time flies, except on the man who drinks his first beer too fast (or our age and you know he’s not just old enough to drink now). As you slip into the party you don’t know anyone, so you make a show of making yourself busy and show nervous excitement. We sit in lounge chairs and chat, pretending the world will never end. Something awful can happen at this barbecue, but the good part never comes. The time passes and eventually you can leave.

Do you ever get tired of your own skin? Do you ever get tired of your own thoughts? Do you ever get tired of the same conversations, the same news, the same cultural indoctrinations in public discourse? So the magazines, we tuck our innermost thoughts away in drawers, concerned about the rain. We’re good enough to live under the same slight of hand. There are the masks, too, which everybody gets in the end.

I’m pretty good at detecting nonsense. We all feel alone because I think I don’t acknowledge them when I say I feel alone. I’m not the first weak-tailed dandy to have written an essay of despair, but I am a contemporary person, an existentialist who said that humans are built to feel scared and sad but we’re inevitably lonely. And yet, we geniuses have designed a society in which expressing true feelings in public is discouraged. So the masks again, the eyebrows too.

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Sovereignty is thus a fantasy of jurisdiction

[S]overeignty is the name for a confused, reactive, often not-quite-thought view that there ought to be a solution to the pressure of adapting to “other people” and to other nations’ force of existence, intention, action, entitlement, and desire. Sovereignty is thus a fantasy of jurisdiction. It is a defense of entitlement, reference, and agency.

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To live up to the standards we set for ourselves, we need to design systems in which self-hosting is structurally possible but not strictly necessary

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Doug argues that to maintain high standards, digital communication systems should be designed to allow self-hosting but not require it. He uses the example of XMPP as a standard that enables interoperability between communication tools, ensuring choice and preventing reliance on a single service. Doug also emphasizes the importance of open standards in communication tools, likening them to infrastructure and advocating for their adoption and mandation.

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My zine sold out

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Doug's zine, titled "CW-PUB-001 Field Notes on Productive Friction," has sold out, with a limited run of 50 physical copies. There will be no reprints. The success of the zine has been noted on the Cognitive Wallpaper website, hinting at future zines, although specifics are yet to be decided. The zine was shipped to various countries including the USA, Canada, and Europe, with unexpectedly high postage costs to Europe.

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ideas updated 15 min read

FIELD STATION as a viable system

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Doug's note, "FIELD STATION as a viable system," discusses the application of the Viable System Model (VSM) to build a sustainable business for FIELD STATION, an action lab investigating the future of work, technology, and society. The note outlines the five systems of VSM (Systems 1-5) and how they apply to the field they work in, which lacks System 2 and System 5 coordination and identity, respectively. Doug suggests that TechFreedom, a program they offer, can help supply some of what's missing, acting as a System 2 and System 4 instrument for other organisations. The note also covers coordination, decision-making, and identity within FIELD STATION itself, as well as the potential role of AI in meeting the "requisite variety" in their work.

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Thistle do

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Doug has created a personal task management app called Thistle, an Android app with notifications, a widget, and different treatment for shopping lists and other tasks. The app was made using his Little Robot Friend and syncs with his VPS, but it is not intended for public release.

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